I am very self-centred, and have owned a camera I like since 2008. But for some reason, I have never been comfortable with the idea of standing in front of a mirror and clicking myself. I did do it once, long back. But that was because I had to send someone a photograph. It still wasn’t the “display picture” kind of photo. But I gave in last month. Not only did I click this photo, I made it my display picture on BBM too. Funny how it was always amusing when others did it, and enjoyable when I did it myself.
But unlike most of my actions of the recent past which easily qualify for ‘random’, there was some thought behind it. Not ‘artsy’ thoughts – just some regular churning.
It was an important day. I had spent every minute of it working. And passing out on a flight, of course. But at the end of that very long day, when I checked into my hotel room, the sense of being alone (in life) got to me. I had made an effort to look good. Had people appreciate it too. But at that moment, I was not feeling good. The fancy hotel room didn’t seem fancy. There was no comfort. And to distract/entertain myself, I did this.
Sometimes I feel I unnecessary complicate things for myself. But some days are certainly harder than others.