Aside: I know some of you can sense the paradox here.
But then there are things that blow your mind – facts you weren’t familiar with, stories that are well-told, opinions that you value, and so on. But those facts may be obvious to someone else, that story might not be compelling for another person, and as is the case often enough, opinions aren’t appreciated by many.
Does that mean those words shouldn’t be shared? Or does it mean people should be credited for their ability to discern and select what they genuinely find stimulating? The latter, obviously?
I personally struggle to retain interest in anything or anyone for long. That directly impacts my motivation levels and as a result, the outcomes of anything I might desire. I can’t keep a hobby, I can’t keep to a fitness regime, I can’t even commit to foods I like because I get bored easily. It is a difficult place to be in because this behaviour compromises my ability to achieve the superlative in any space, leaving a sense of resentment that is hard to negotiate.
The other extreme that I experience is obsession. It doesn’t take much for me to get obsessive about things. These range from relationships (ie, why didn’t they reply to my message) to codes that I spend hours trying to fix despite being acutely aware that my knowledge of the language that is a prerequisite for that solve is abysmally low.
I oscillate between feelings of envy and respect for people who channel their obsessions productively towards a goal that matters to them. Meanwhile I blankly spiral in my maze of unfinished thoughts, words and businesses.
