Awareness

When blacking out and falling to the ground, I was judging myself for being dramatic. When being hysterical after an emotional setback, I was still judging myself for being dramatic. When being informed of my husband’s father passing away, I was judging myself for being dramatic and crying. While I see him trying to bounce … Continue reading Awareness

Easter 2020

It has been a remarkable weekend in several ways. Firstly, COVID-19, our generation’s World War. It’s no irony that C and I started watching The West Wing this weekend, and four episodes in Josh talks of the next big threat to the world – an epidemic not dissimilar to smallpox. “If one hundred people in … Continue reading Easter 2020

Lost

I’ve been finding myself in conversations where I struggle to define myself. “I feel comfortable in London even if I am an outsider. I don’t see anyone like myself in the office and find it hard to keep up with the context and culture that’s natural for the others.”   Today I took a personality … Continue reading Lost

Validation

3 Feb 2020 I’ve made some effort over the past few years to reduce my need for validation. However, I don’t think I have had much success at it. I still seek that thing in people’s eyes and their nods that tells me I am right or liked or capable of achieving my ambitions. Today … Continue reading Validation

2019

# I brought Kaddu, my first car home. # Not necessarily a highlight, but I also scratched it a couple of times. # At the beginning of the year, C and I went to Kerala for a few days. I’d never been particularly keen on it but Munnar was absolutely stunning – we visited tea … Continue reading 2019